No, it doesn't end tonight.

Another long post. Hahaha... Okay, maybe not. I'll try to summarise the whole RME retreat into just a few paragraphs. As little as possible. That way, you all won't have so much trouble keeping awake while reading my entry, and also i'll be done in time to go watch Friends.

Okay so friday afternoon went to school for the dreaded rme retreat. So we were told that we'll be split up into rooms and dorms and that our room-mates would be chosen for us. That was a serious turn off because there were those HIGHER class people whom i was sure i wouldn't have any fun with. But thank goodness my room-mates turned out to be ronald and ben. "Happening" people in other words. So we had a dance lesson, yes, dance. The instructor was this guy called eugene who at first sight would be labelled "gay". But over the retreat he earned my respect. Tell you why later. At night we were crapping like crazy in the room, laughing my butt off at ronald on the phone with these girls he had never talked to before. Stayed up until about 2am that night before falling asleep.

The next day we had like talks and stuff. Nothing much really exciting, besides the "skit" that was put up. It was hilarious. Laughed my butt off, again. Just that i thought maybe peter went a little too far with the bra size thingy. After that finally got to play soccer. (Heh...) Played in the basketball court there barefoot. Ended up with blisters on each foot but it wasn't that bad. That night, eugene put up this performance something about having all your sins trapped in you and finally letting them out. I tell you he was amazing. Indescribable. That night we played dai dee until like 4am with gareth, ng and sherman. It was crazy but really fun. Heh...

On sunday i woked up really stoned. Heh.. Had mass then some little performance thingy then finally got to go home. After getting home i rested for a while, still quite stoned, then went to play soccer at ij. Heh yes crazy. Was quite dead there but even more so when i got home. Today had graduation day practise, damn slack. After school decided to go to swee lee to jam to practise for next tuesday's audition for grad night. When we reached there we were looking around then imran spotted a guitar with "tom delonge" inscribed in the silver plate behind it. Damn nice guitar. Fender strat. Imran took a photo using his 7250, its down there. Heh i wish i had that guitar...

Anyways, as you can see today's entry is really messy and all out of place. Reason being i'm rushing to make it for friends and i think i'm late already. So i'm off now.

Okay. Get ready for a long post. Maybe. I've got lots on my mind. So for the first time in a long time you all would get to read about what i'm thinking and how i'm feeling. Maybe.

First thing's that my mum told me the cut off for sa is like 11 points now, and their ranking is 6th or 7th or somewhere around there. And that makes it harder for me to get in. I really doubt the chances of me getting 11 points for my prelims, though it is possible. Maybe. Talked to a senior whose name i can't even remember yesterday. He's in nj now, and i quote, "if possible don't come to nj. Its all about mugging." So that just reinforces my decision of staying away from njc. He also said to be in sa, you need a lot of discipline. I think i might have that discipline, but only sometimes. More often than not i'll be slacking away. Don't know how i'm going to survive next year, let alone the rest of my life. Some people say that for the first three months, its just important that you get into a jc, anyone at that. So that you'll have the syllabus and stuff so you won't be so far behind after the first three months. But there's those two loyalty points that i really need.

11 points actually seems so hard to get sometimes to me. Of course there are the times where i think getting 6 points is no sweat. I've written it how many times, english, e maths, physics all a1. a maths, chem and history a2. 9 points. Its so easy to write all that crap out and even easier to chuck it away and not try to acheive it. That's the sickening thing. Okay lets see, its exactly 39 days until the first o level paper. And that's not the practicals. Practicals are in october. Its damn short come to think about it. Right now the plan is to relax this week, and from next monday onwards the hardcore mugging begins. Which means this could very well be the last entry in a long while. Don't be sad, i'll be back.

Many people have asked me what i want to do in the future, and asking about the possibility of me going to poly. The only reason why i don't intend to go to a poly next year is because i've no idea what i want to do in the future, so no idea of what course to take in poly. But actually there are a few things that i wouldn't mind being when i grow up. Like going professional in something that doesn't really need you to work hard, but do something you enjoy. Like playing soccer. But that's just about impossible seeing how WELL i play soccer now. Then there's becoming a professional band. Which really depends on the other members, and its also not as if we're good. Basically its just doing what you love for a living. Low input, high pay. And i'm not talking about prostitution. Lets just see what options my life gives me, then i'll work it out from there.

Anyways, yesterday was the last of my prelim papers. A maths paper 2. I actually found it a little easier than paper 1, unlike a lot of other people. There were only about 2 questions i was really unsure of. The rest not as bad. But for paper 1 question 8 onwards were pains. So after the paper i came home for a while, then left to meet imran, haikal, joel, timo and victor at orchard mrt station. From there we went to swee lee to jam. The first time in how long. The jamming was not very productive i feel. We only managed to play so few songs in the whole two hours. Rest of the time we were messing around and/or trying to get the stuff to work. After that timo was looking for a drum machine to buy for yuhan. Found one that was somewhere around $250. Didn't expect him to buy it for her man... Really cool. So while he was looking around, me and imran were fooling around with my camera outside swee lee on the second level. He climbed up onto a ledge and i took some shots. Then haikal came along and suggested we do some kind of photo movie thing. You can see all the pictures in the fishstick album. Turned out really cool and had lots of fun doing it. Even went to record a video at a bus stop. Took about 15 minutes deciding what to do, and everyone around us was staring. But it was not as bad as the mrt one. We missed two trains just to get all the pictures. And we were totally making fools out of ourselves. The people around us were either laughing at us or turned away in disgust. But we had fun.

Today i finally woke up without the sound of the alarm clock. Felt damn shiok. But it was raining, and i was supposed to play soccer at 1pm. So i was hoping for the rain to stop or at least lighten up. But it just continued and even got heavier. So full of shit. Called siong guan up and he said the match was still on, so i went down. Ended up playing in a drizzle that got heavy for a while but it was quite harmless i guess. Except that the ball got really slippery and the field was waterlogged. Thank goodness it wasn't real grass. Or else i would have been covered in mud by the end. Played against the indian team. Led 1 - 0 at halftime, but ended up losing 2 - 3. I don't know about the rest but i played like shit. Don't know if it was the rain or what, but i sucked real badly today. Although i had a few good spells and earned a sure penalty that they for some reason said it was not, overall just sucky. After that aaron said to go to tanah merah mrt station then go to laguna. Hitched a ride from norman's taxi to orchard and then to tanah merah. When i got to city hall, there was this crazy dude with like a few hundred piercings on his face alone, who was laughing some saddistic laugh in the station and started talking to his reflection in the glass and danced in front of it. Heh, funny but a little scary at the same time. So when i finally got to laguna, went to swim with timo, jason, victor, eileen and aaron. Played at the slide, damn fun. Heh... Reliving those childhood days.

Tomorrow i have to go for the stupid stupid rme retreat. I really don't want to go. I don't think i'll have any fun there at all. That's if its meant to be any fun at all. Just hope it passes quickly. My whole saturday is burnt because of this retreat, and i won't be able to go to church on sunday. Screwed up man... I'm going to try to talk to dominic ang tomorrow, ask him to let me out on saturday because of the confirmation mass at about 3. Two of my cousins and a few friends are getting confirmed. Then there's a huge family dinner later that night. Don't know if i'll be able to make it. Its all because of the retreat. Dammit... Just hope that i'll make it in time for soccer on sunday. I'll be bringing my handphone of course. So those of you reading this please have a little pity on me, sms me okay? Keep me company while i'm suffering there. Haha... Though it'll be hard to reply if there are a lot of teachers around or we're doing stuff. Don't even know if handphones are allowed there. And its all the damn way in punggol. What the hell man...

Right now i'm feeling quite messed up, tired from the swimming, stomach hurting from don't know what, aching from soccer (the damn indians freaking rough), and plain screwed up from whatever that's going on in the house. Ahh shan't explain further. You all take care and stay funky. Suddenly i sound so nice.

Happy birthday jill! +D

And thank goodness for the prelims finally coming to an end. =) Whoohoo i want my six points...

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Celebrating 888 hits for http://nxck.blogspot.com/. Hahahaha... Feeling lucky?

Its a friday, so i can blog. Okay here's a run down of all the papers i've had so far.

Monday had E Maths paper 1. I found it quite okay. Although there was the usual rush for time towards the end, and that one question i had a little problem on, should be okay if i wasn't careless. I hope. Some people found it tough, i don't know... Anyways after that had geography elective. (haha) For the mid year exam this year, i think i got about 20++ upon a hundred for my geog elect? Wahahaha... So i didn't really expect much for this paper. I did study, of course. And in the end i was surprised by how much i wrote and actually thought it was all quite relavent. I actually was still writing when the teacher told us to stop. How amazing is that? Heh... Yea, so i hope maybe by some cool miracle i do well for my elective this time round.

Tuesday had physics. Paper 1 again i found not too bad. Only four CONFIRMED mistakes so far. Might be more. Well, should be more i guess. Just hope its not too bad. Then paper 2 was tough. Especially that question on moments, whoa shit. Rushing for time again towards the end, but managed to finish the paper. I'm not too confident about the paper anymore. Before i wanted to get an a1 for physics. Right now i think its still quite possible but not very likely anymore.

Wednesday had e maths paper 2. That was full of shit. Totally screwed up. I think just about every question, i had problems with. E maths is supposed to be the easiest subject to get an a1 for and i screwed it up. Great. Anyways, after that there was history paper 2, yes, paper TWO. SJI for some reason switched the two around. Well, of all the chapters that i studied, one came out. Guess it was okay overall, but damn suay for all those who studied japan only. Or chapter 1. Heh...

Thursday, yesterday, had social studies. For the essays, i actually studied for two out of three of them. But it just so happened that they phrased one of the questions in such a way that i couldn't answer it, because i didn't study the details of that point. So i was left with only one question to do, again. Then again i'm not confident about my elective, but it doesn't matter really. I never planned to include it in my L1R5. So its not all that bad.

Today, had hisotry paper 1. And it was held in the hall. And i had to be so unlucky to get the seat just about dead centre of the hall, where the air-cons all blew. AND, i didn't bring my jacket. So i borrowed one from jason, who was sitting at the side. If i hadn't, i think i would have froze to death. It was freaking cold even with the jacket on. And after the paper, jason said it was freaking hot. Weird guy. Anyways, this paper was quite screwed up again. I could answer two questions, but didn't have enough points of one of them. So only one question could be answered. And that question, was set on TWO topics. They freaking combined the two chapters. And i studied only one of them. Didn't have time to finish the second essay, didn't have the points anyways but i did crap up a bit. Think i'll get like maybe 5 or 6 out of 13 for that question. Crap man...

Prelims suck. All that talk about getting a single digit average, can kiss them goodbye. I'll say what just about everyone else is saying right now. First three months in cjc. Either that or we're all going to work. Actually to me it doesn't quite matter what jc i go to in the first three months, just that i go to one. That way i won't be behind after the first three months. Thats if i don't perform just as bad for my o levels. Next week is chemistry and a maths papers 1 and 2. Those two subjects i've been sort of overconfident since mid year and all, and did quite badly. So today and the weekend i'm going to work really hard on those two. I've said it, lets just hope i actually do it now.

The reason why i haven't blogged in almost a week is because everytime i write an entry, it begins to get lamer and cornier and just more plain fucked up. Guess its mainly because i try start off saying something like oh this is going to be another one of those i'm-pathetic-so-pity-me speeches. Then after a while i find it degrading myself and stuff so i scrap it. So now, its gonna start a little differently and hopefully it doesn't turn out so bad. Lets go back to last week.

Hmm had physics practical on wednesday. Michael Chin did say that we've done the experiments before, and to go in and have fun. I don't know about fun but my graph did turn out quite good to me. Just one point barely missing the line. But the other experiment, where we had to determine the temperature of the bunsen burner, i think i might have screwed that up. And everyone else too. Quite a few people had readings over 1000ºC. Me included. Its somewhat hard to believe it though. Just have to pray for the best i guess. All i can say is that i think physics practical was better than my chem prac. Anyways after, went shopping, yes shopping, with jason, victor and aaron. They were looking for something for someone and i was looking for a birthday present to share with ryan for andrea. So after a lot of looking around, and suggestions from lots of people, i finally decided to get a book. It was damn hard to pick one, knowing that she reads so much but not knowing what she has or has not read. Finally after a lot of help from those three i picked a book called the Rainmaker. Don't ask me why though. Heh... Wanted to get my guitar cable from the music shop but by then i had no enough money on me. So i went home after that.

The next day had english prelims. Paper 1 was, i don't know. First i wrote "Failure", which i've come to realise is a very popular topic. A LOT of people wrote that question. I don't think it was my best piece of writing though. Then for the functional writing, i might have misinterpreted the meanings of "fostering" and "sterilization". If i did then that would probably cut quite a few marks off the total. Shite... Paper 2 was tough. The passage was ok but the questions asked was pretty hard to answer. That's how i feel anyways, though there are those who found the paper easy on the whole. Whatever to them. After the paper, went to Starbucks, yes Starbucks, in ps. Victor, jason, wanwan and i went there and spent a lot. Heh, had a mocha frap and a muffin. No idea why i decided to spend so much. So aaron came after a while, and then eileen. Then we all left for victor's club somewhere in serangoon. Was supposed to study there, but didn't really get much done. Pretty much wasted my time there. Sorry victor but yea. Don't think i can study well in that kind of environment. Played around most of the time. Anyways, left after playing like two games of pool with jason there. I realised then that i really do suck at pool. Heh... Missed the 165 from ang mo kio mrt station, and was in a rush so i had to catch a cab back home. There goes the rest of the month's allowance. Actually it was jill's suggestion. So yea, thanks. Haha...

Friday was a super turn-off day. After prelims, then a stupid full school day before the holidays start. So you might have guessed that a lot of people would probably pon. Well one of them was jason, who had my camera, who was supposed to return it to me that day, whom i brought two lifehouse cd's for. I was scolding him like crazy in class, even during amy chua's period. You could imagine how pissed i was at him. And he knew it too. So the smart SMART jason came during recess to return it to me. And in the process got screwed by CF. Well he deserves it. Haha... So after the cleaning up and stuff we took pictures, and i've uploaded them into the albums already. Wanted to go cut hair after school, but had to wait until about 3+ because the people had their prayers and stuff. Couldn't be bothered to wait so i just went home.

After lunch on saturday, went to uncle peter's house to try and get my guitar cable fixed. Turned out that its beyond repair, so he gave me a brand new one. Whoohoo... Shiok. After that i came home and played the guitar with my new cable for a while before going to farrer court to play soccer in the basketball court. Think i played a little better than the last time i was there, kinda happy with that. That was pretty much my saturday. Then sunday i went to church and crashed the sec 3 class for about an hour or so before i had to leave. Was supposed to help with the car wash thingy but didn't have the right company to do it with so i just went home. Had lunch then went to IJ to play soccer. It was burning hot and the turnout was quite pathetic but it was fun nevertheless. Was just taking random free kicks without any keeper at the start, and i got some pretty sweet shots in. Amazed myself really. Heh, so after that i hitched a ride home from uncle andrew.

And we've come to the wonderful day of today. Had maths tuition in the morning, and then went to meet jason, aaron and victor to go to the american club to study. We bowled first because we had free bowling for an hour. Then played two games of pool, then went to swim. After that we tried to study at the poolside but of course it didn't work out and we just ended up eating and playing around. After a while wanwan said he wanted to join us and eileen was with him. Turned out that i could not sign in the both of them, only one, so we decided to leave and go somewhere else. Went off to pool world (i had no idea where that was until today). Started playing at about 5.30pm. I wasn't really keeping track of time at all, and i don't think anyone else was. I checked my handphone for the time, and it was 7.43pm. I was supposed to be back at 8pm because my parents were out and my brother was at home alone. I could have just killed myself then. Called and told him i was going to be late, and thankfully he was okay with that. So we left poolworld at about 8pm. Can't believe we spent so much time and MONEY there. The cost came up to more than 10 bucks per person. And there were five of us there. (Wanwan left early and didn't pay. That freeloading bum. Haha..) Walked over to cine food court for dinner. Bought a $3 plate of char siew rice which wasn't really great. Jason and aaron thought so too. Heh... After that i left them there and rushed off home. I was just flipping channels between andy roddick's final match against juan carlos ferrero, some soccer dog show and the negotiator before coming online.

Well, that's it. Looks like this entry didn't turn out to be a rejected one. Heh...

As expected, i received so many complains and compliments (more of the former of course) about the pictures. Heh its kinda interesting how people react to stuff like that. C'mon, its not porn is it? Besides, i also named it R(A) and there was that little warning kinda thing when you went there right? So you saw the pictures on your own free will, and should NOT come to me saying they're so sick and crap. I KNOW THEY ARE. Heh anyways, just thought i'd give you a little bit of statistics for now. Numbers always amaze people. Okay take a look at this. The results are as of 3.30pm on 2nd September 2003.

Number of hits for each photo album:
church - 26
class - 22
fishstick - 23
formals - 20
ncc 2002 - 4
ncc 2003 - 13
sentosa - 12
sum 41 - 17
r(a) - 118

This just goes to show all of you out there are just as sick as those pictures so quit whining! If you want more you can always ask nicely.

I just realised how deprived i am. I need a new set of friends. Anyone up for the offer?