No, it doesn't end tonight.

I've removed the link to the r(a) pictures for certain undisclosed reasons. BUT if you're still feeling horny and are so desperate to see those pictures just ask me for the url. ;)

Didn't go to school this morning. Don't think brother paul expected many people to turn up in school today anyways. Heard from some people that only half the j1 population went to school today, which is more than i expected. Heh... Timo said only 5 people from my class went to school. Anyways... Woke up at about 8 plus, got ready and left for town. Wore my severely undersized sji shirt. Heh... I must have grew the past two months.

So i met jason, aaron, victor and ng in orchard mrt then started walking around. Imran joined us later. Walked to burger king at far east and had "brunch" there. Went to i-forgot-where then we finally made our way to sji. When we got there the first piece of good news. Qisheng told us that bamanshaw said our class had 50% distinctions for english and the lowest was a C5. Next piece of good news, ms. matthews said that nobody failed history and there was 63% distinctions there. We waited a damn long time before the doors to the hall were opened. Then we had to wait quite a while again before actually getting our results. First was prayer, then mr. lui's speech and then mr. chen's briefing (which was full of super funny pronounciation errors). "Applicants" became "africans" and "available" became "avrilble". Haha it was damn funny... At least could relieve a little bit of stress and tension before getting the results.

So the moment of truth came. Heh i sound so spastic. Nevermind. They gave out the results according to register number. So i had to wait for THIRTY people to get their results first before i did. I got really restless after a while so i started moving about the area. Then suddenly hejia shouted to me saying i got nine points. I was damn stunned. Not happy, not sad, just stunned. It took a while to settle but still, i wasn't happy, neither was i sad. Don't ask why. I'm just weird. So i collected my results slip and true enough i got 9 points. That was my aim, a single digit. Yes i will post up my results. So my ego will be satisfied. ;)

English - A1
Chinese - C6 (lol)
E Math - A1
A Math - A1
Physics - A2
Chem - A2
Combined - B3
History - A2

I was rather pissed off with my two science grades. Now i understand those people who say getting like 7 or 8 for their o's is screwing it up. I'm super amazed by my humanities marks though. I spotted wrongly and messed up the source based for social studies and didn't really complete the geog elect paper and still managed a B3. History is even better. Every section of both papers, except the paper 2 essay, i messed up, and got an a2 still. From a C6 in prelims to an A2 is not that bad... Heh... The other of my subjects i'm satisfied with. Heh...

I should be happy and going crazy over my grades, because i never expected to do this well... But something's preventing me from doing so. Its like, you can't help but feel sad for those who didn't do as well as you, especially people whom you really care about and stuff... Many classmates and schoolmates in sji as well as cj weren't as satisfied with their results as i was. Well this is to all you people out there who fall into that category. What's done is done, just do you're best from now on.

P.S. Of course, the last paragraph is the most important one in this entry.

Fuck it man... Had lim cf's math test today and i think its safe to say i'm not getting my A. It'd be rather surprising if i even manage a B for that matter. The first of two questions was pretty much alright, to me that is, and the second i felt wasn't that bad. But, mr lim was looking at my work during the test and gave me some screwed up face. I asked him what he meant by that after the test and he said i had a lot wrong. Bloody hell... Don't know what i did wrong... Just goes to show how full of shit i am. Got mrs. tai's test on thursday. Don't think i'm even dreaming of getting an A. 24/25 requires a miracle. And for a B i'd need 19. Ah what the hell, i'm not going to calculate how many marks i need to get and shit like that. Just do the damn test. Going to have to mug my ass off the next 2 days for that test. I don't understand a single shit about method of differences and blah blah blah... Just hope for the best. (That's damn easy to say isn't it?) The results don't matter do they? At least for physics and chem i'll hopefully do better, to make up for the maths. Yesterday's chem test went pretty well... It just shows that i shouldn't be in a double math class. Whatever...

Okay i think its about time for a proper entry. The past like... seven entries have been nothing but short incoherent sentences that mean almost absolutely nothing. So here i am, finally writing something sensible. Hopefully...

Okay so on wednesday the soccer team was supposed to play against MI but for some reason they pulled out. So we played nj instead. We lost (no surprise there), I didn't get to play (that pissed me off), and i thought i just wasted my whole afternoon there. Did absolutely nothing besides warming up and sitting down. That day was one of the worst days i've had this year. Ugh...

Nothing much happened on thursday and friday. Either that or i can't remember anything interesting that happened.

Caught sweet dreams and turtle soup on friday night. It was, well, not bad. Got me thinking. Had lots of shit churning in my mind during and after the show. I would have blogged it down or something but it was just too messed up. I didn't even know if i was thinking straight. Heh... The show ended at about 1am. Then i went to sleep. Had to wake up before 9am because i had to get to school by 9.30 for soccer. Didn't get enough rest so i was like a zombie getting out of the house. Had the bleep test in the quadrangle that morning. I was damn scared i'd screw up and get dropped from the team or something. Did much better than i had expected really. I was only expecting myself to reach somewhere around level 10 but i managed a 11.3. Not bad not bad... But still have to train a lot more. My ass was aching like hell because of the lactic acid shit. Don't know what it is exactly but i know it hurts. Binh got to level 13, he's a freak. He even went for odac training before coming for the bleep test. Damn pro... Level 13 is the standard of like national players in Singapore. Think if he didn't go for odac he could've reached 15 or something...

Anyways, after that we went for a run outside school. At first i was on the verge of pulling out saying i'm injured or something but i just went on. We ran about 1.5km on mount rosie then went to some ulu place called bukit tunggal or something along those lines. It was a slope that bent left and right supposedly for 220m before the top. We had to run up and down that 3 times. THREE times. The first time up i was dying already. After each bend i'd think it was the top already, only to see another bend. Ugh... But the second and third times i went slowly so it wasn't that bad. After that ran back to school. I realised its much easier to run when you're not thinking of the running. Makes sense? Like keep your mind off the run and just keep on going. I don't know but it works for me. Was crapping with ming and jonathan on the way back and that made my run much easier. Heh... Quite cool.

Was real shagged after that. So i just went home for lunch. Was messaging christine on the way home, she asked me to join her and her class for dinner. I figured it'd be more fun than the dinner that i was supposed to have so i agreed. At least i knew quite a few people from her class so i wouldn't feel that extra. Watched spy game that afternoon. Taped it a few days back and finally found time to watch it. With school ending so late plus having so much training and shit like that, there's absolutely no time for anything else. Anyways i finally understood the show. The first time i watched it in the movies i don't think i was really paying attention. Or maybe i just wasn't that "intellectual" at that time. Haha... Whatever.

Left for harbour front at about 7 plus. It was still quite bright. But by the time i got on the bus it was totally dark. Basket.. While i was crossing the bridge to the busstop i saw the only two busses i could take drive off. Talk about coincidence. What the hell man i was super pissed off. Then had to wait a freaking long time before the 855 came. Then it took forever before it reached the terminal. I swear i was about to kill someone. So anyways, walked over to harbour front then met them at food junction. Ate, talked, then went to play in the arcade. Alvin's crazy, i swear. Even worse than he was in sec 1 and 2. Heh... After that we wanted to go to starbucks but it was closed. So we went to coffee bean. I didn't get anything, just sat down and talked with them. Not long after that we all left. Got home at about 10 plus, earlier than i had expected so that was good.

Hmmm today there's nothing much to do besides soccer later. I also have to start studying for my math tests next week. I need to get 24/25 for mrs tai's test so i can get an A, and 22/25 for mr. lim's one. Haha... Yes, fat hope. Sucks man, my report card for the first three months is going to look real shitty. Nevermind. It doesn't matter.

Ah well, you'll probably think this entry is super boring and stuff. That's because the juicy and more interesting details have been left out so that the wrong people won't see it. Get it? ;)

After what happened to kel and her blog and all, my entries would probably be much more boring and stuff. Just in case the wrong persons sees it and blah blah blah. You know what i mean. So i'll just say this for today's entry. Some CB pissed me off like hell today. knnbccb

i need to relieve tension

I won't say that my valentine's day was all that great, but neither would i say it was bad. Don't worry, i'm not going to give you a blow by blow account of every little thing that happened today yesterday, because that would be boring, meaningless, and a total waste of time and energy. I've actually got a shit load of things to blog about, but the thing holding me back is the thought that the wrong person may read it, then if it gets to certain people, i'd may just as well go kill myself. And because of that i've been looking for some script or what else that can set a password to my blog. That way i'll know who reads my blog, and it'll be safe to blog bout anything. But on the other hand, it'll take away all the fun of meeting new people who blog-hop to your blog. Ah whatever, shall stop blogging now. Feeling like shit. Ugh...

I just removed the "wishlist" thing from the right size of the blog. Reason being, I asked myself this question. "What's the wishlist there for?" For people to see? Sure, yea. So what if they know what you want? It's not as if they're going to get it for you. And besides, you can't expect someone to get you a Gibson Tom Delonge Signature, can you? Nevermind.

Didn't think i would actually say this, but i'm not the ever-so-happy nicholas tseng you used to know. I did something wrong and messed up big time. So yea, for your own safety, back off. I'd appreciate all your concern and what else, but i'd appreciate it more if you'd leave me alone. It's like, don't try to help if nobody asks you to. And yes, thanks for your understanding.

P.S. The song doesn't really have much to do with my situation now. Just in case you were wondering. I just like it a lot.

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that i've ever been
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

Chorus
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

Chorus x3

I just want you to know who I am

I got bit today. No, its not a love bite. (Although i wish it was. Heh...) Crazy ass ivan tan didn't look as though he was going to struggle much when we all wassuped him, but whoa. He thrashed out and kicked and BIT. He's mad... New lesson learnt, never stay near the mouth. Mad guy bit into my side. Yea, ouch. Haha... Besides him, miah also got it today. Compared to last wednesday, today had no kick at all. Heh... We'll see what happens next week. Short short entry, because... because.

I want to fold a paper rose
And give it to you.

But I can't.

I'd blog if i had something to blog about. But since there's nothing to blog about except my boring life, i shan't blog. Afterall, who wants to know what i did today and yesterday and every other day? You all should instead go do your homework. Like i should too.