No, it doesn't end tonight.

Took this picture a few weeks back at an arcade somewhere in pasir ris. Thought the way they put it was quite funny. Heh...



Anyways, had day one of orientation today. I won't comment on my class, but if you want to hear lots of stories just ask me. I've got lots lots and lots more to say. Neither will i comment on my day, because the turnout of my day was affected by my class, so yea... So i'll just say that there were times i felt like dying, but there were also times i felt really good. ;)

I simply love incoherent and pointless entries that people just don't understand.

10 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR backpack/school bag/purse/bag:
1. handphone
2. wallet
3. water bottle
4. house key
5. file
6. calculator.. (that's all i got in my sch bag. lol)
7.
8.
9.
10.

9 THINGS THAT U REALLY WANT RIGHT NOW:
1. a handphone cover that fits properly
2. guitar strings
3. this headache to go away
4. soccer
5. a new guitar
6. to talk to somebody
7. money
8. tonight's match to go WELL
9. to stop wanting too many things

8 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOOD:
1. rocky road ice cream
2. farrer market "shu shi"
3. salt and vinegar chips
4. sji's cai fan
5. cj's chicky meal
6. sa's... just about everything's good there. lol
7. chocolates
8. ribena lol

7 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:

-shall not list for obvious reasons-

6 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
1. lotr trilogy
2. matrix trilogy
3. scary movie "triology"
4. ocean's eleven
5. the recruit
6. last castle

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
1. my com. (:
2. guitar
3. old xmas presents
4. stacks of old worksheets
5. usual stuff

4 THINGS YOU ATE/DRINK TODAY
1. sliced chicken noodles
2. fish porridge
3. you tiao
4. hokkien mee

3 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1. friends
2. soccer
3. music

THINGS YOU USUALLY READ
1. the little prince
2. people's blogs/websites/etc

1 PERSON YOU CAN'T FORGET
1. tang wing kee

Tuesday: Day was packed with intro lectures right from the start. First off was chemistry. Was falling asleep during that one so didn't catch much they were trying to tell us. Next few periods were physics, geog/hist, lit intro lectures then break. But for those four periods i was slacking in the canteen with lau, shawn and a few others i can't remember... Super slack man... I figured that those intro lectures would be pretty useless anyways. Anyways after break was f. math lecture, which i attended. The teacher said stuff about you having to absolutely LOVE math to take it. I know i definately don't, but i don't hate anything else less than maths, so yea... Had another "break" after that because it was bio/computing/art lecture, followed by civics. Did that NE chant thing again and then went to LT2 for the "competition". I thought our performance was bad, but in the end the other ogs were worse. Just shows how much interest everyone has in this. Can't remember what i did after school... Think i went home straight. At least i got to know some of the og people better that day. Wasn't as bad as monday.

Wednesday: Opted for f. math combi. Double maths double science. Same as the one i took in cj for the first three months. Don't know if it was the right choice or not but it seemed the right one at that point in time. Found out that our NE chant got us into the finals (much to my disappointment) so we had to stay back for one more period after school for the finals. Went for econs intro lect after that and didn't understand a single shit that guy was talking about. So i guess not picking econs first was right. Heh... Break, then ponned chinese intro lect. Heard that they just advertised for some china trip, so it wasn't worth going at all. Then was lunch break, then GP intro lect. The lecturer was quite gay. No, DAMN gay. Okay nevermind. So the NE chant finals thing started. The whole og was quite reluctant in doing it so when it was our turn we did an even worse performance than the day before. Not that i'm complaining, at least we didn't win the damn thing. Or else we'd have to go to represent the school somewhere else for the NE chant thing. By the time the chant crap ended, just about everyone had left the school. So with nobody to go out with, i left for home.

Thursday: First thing we did that day was jumping jacks. A whole shit-load of jumping jacks. I didn't really see the point behind doing it all but it was fun crapping around with wei jia, leon and that other guy. Had some hula-hoop game thing in which we cheated and won the first round. Had fun during that game, heh... It was the first time in sa that i was really having fun. After that went for a talk on history of sajc, then some NE thing again i think... Talked to us about the national anthem and pledge and stuff. Super boring. Anyways after that we went to class for more NE stuff. Then we had to paint some flag. Slacked through most of it because there were about twenty of us and only 5 paints and 3 brushes, but ended up getting dirty "painting" footprints on the flag. Looked quite good i must say. Heh... After that was a break. Ate with a few of og24 people. Didn't feel left out at all. Heh, quite cool. Ended up playing number game after eating, was quite entertaining. Heh... Left for the hall with them. Played games that work your trust and cooperation and stuff like that. Had a pretty enjoyable time in there. It all ended at about 4+, then went for soccer trials with ming, leon, and quite a few others. Didn't get in, as expected, but its alright. Their loss. Hahaha...

Friday: Had a string of very boring talks. That's all. Very very boring first half of my day. Had lunch in school with francis then made our way to harbourfront because i needed to top-up my ezlink. Walked around there for a while, used the toilet (quite cool man), went to mc's for a while then made our way to cj. When we got there and walked in this j2 councillor (who looked like he was having pms) came up to us and asked us to leave because we weren't supposed to be there. That ass didn't even let us go to take a visitor's pass. Wtf man... So we had no choice but to leave. On the way out i met raj and some of his ac friends. They said that they could get into school the day before so that day shouldn't be a problem. So francis and i followed them. Met the dear councillor again (still pmsing) but he let raj go in to talk to the school admin, then he got us into the school. Hung around outside the hall for a while, met a lot of people, mostly sji. Then i went into the hall and looked for somewhere to hide myself. Went to sit with ming and his "class". But not long after, so suay, mrs. sandra tan found me. After pleading with her she let me stay, but then she came back and said bro. paul says i'm not supposed to be in cj. On the way out of the hall, bro. paul grabbed my arm and said "you were here and then left right?" "Uhh, yea..." "THEN LEAVE" My gosh, the whole of cj was pmsing that day.

When i got outside school i met some people whom i've seen around before but never had the chance to talk to. Like alan and genghis. Arun was there too. All of them got caught and thrown out along with me. Haha... We were bitching about bro. paul and the teachers for a while, then alan and i decided to go play pool before meeting them back at youth park. At paradigm i met leon, zack, smiley and some others playing pool. I watched for a while, played one game, then went off for dinner at park mall with leon and 2 others. (I either don't know their names or can't spell) Went back to paradigm and met genghis there. Walked with him to taka where he left to meet his ex-classmates and i went to meet christine, derek, chipmunk and their new friend wizzi, who turned out to be super blur and super funny. Heh... They ate dinner in mc's and then went to youthpark. It was damn crowded by the time we got there. Met a lot of cj friends there. Like when i got there i was walking around for a while, then found myself saying hi to so many people. Just shows how many friends i have in cj. For a while i kind of regretted going to sa, but not anymore. Haha... ;) Found joel, timo and the rest of the 408 bunch together with imran. Did a hell-lot of crazy shit that night, too much to say, too dirty, sick and disgusting to say. I only regretted not bringing my camera. Left at about 10.30pm. Had a really fun time there.

Saturday (today): Woke up pretty early to go to school to buy my PE attire. Checked my class. Turns out that i got the double maths combi i opted for. I shan't comment about my class, for the sole reason that one of them may read this in the near future and feel offended or whatever. So anyways, i went home and then left for town. Met mick, jessie, jiale, christine and siyuan (in order of time of arrival) then went to have lunch at pasta mania. Walked around a bit after that but i left damn early to go to jurong east to jam with fishstick. When we went into the shop the aunty diaoed imran. Haha my gosh it was damn funny but i was trying damn hard to contain my laughted. She reluctantly gave us a room and she was standing outside looking in on us for like five minutes before she finally bugged off. PMS woman. That's all i have to say. Played a few songs, then tried recording using timo's MD. Don't know if it turned out well or not but just hoping for the best. Stoned in kfc for a while then left for glen's party. Watched birmingham and leeds, then left for home.

Okay, that's my update for today. It's rather brief but its enough. Got to sleep now, super tired and i have to wake up early tomorrow again. Don't know how i'm going to manage keeping awake at church tomorrow. Haha... Alright then, i'm off now.

First day of school in sajc was horrid. HORRID. First thing i walk into the school i see someone whom i'm not the best of friends with. Okay, nevermind. Then i see kel, at least someone i know, so i wouldn't look like a blur piece of shit there. So i go to check for my og. I find my name, then see who else is in OG24, and i see someone. Okay nevermind. So finally assembly starts, and we stone on the track for some time before moving to the auditorium for some talk. Talk was rather dull, then watched a video. SA people are rather lame and corny, but that's no problem for me. Anyways after that was break. Stoned in the students centre with francis until the canteen stalls queues were shorter, then went to eat. Must say the food is much better than cj's. At least after the first day i think it is. So we go back to the auditorium for more talks. Very, very boring talks. I was forcing myself to stay awake. After surviving that, we went to our classrooms. There was oen guy who i was classmates with in primary 6, but he didn't remember me. Nevermind. Our og tutor wasn't all that lively and interesting. And we had this NE chant crap shit which i felt was totally stupid. The people in class are all stoners, including me, except for a small clique of first-intakers who left after the break. Got the NE shit done after a break then finally school ended. Saw a ton of cj people with appeal forms after school. Jason, victor, derek and christine were among those i met. After they sent in their appeal forms i went to harbourfront mc's with christine and derek. Jason and victor happened to be going there too. Victor left for home then jason tagged along with us. Ate, walked around, then left for home. What a wonderful day.

There's a whole lot of people appealing from sa back to cj. Timo, probably eileen, ming yuan is considering it too. I don't know if i should too. CJ would probably be more fun, but academically? I don't know...

Selling CJ pe t-shirts and shorts. I've got 2 sets of that. Don't worry, very cheap. I've got a CJ file too if u want. Anyone interested?

This week of holidays passed bloody fast. Okok, recap on what happened. Monday was the sentosa outing. Reached harbourfront mrt station about ten minutes late. Jessie, raj and mick were there already. Waited a while for jiale. Christine came ONE HOUR PLUS PLUS PLUS late. So by the time we got to sentosa itself was about 1pm++? Oh, raj's friends came along too. So the first thing we did when we got there was play volleyball. I'm not a huge fan of volleyball but it was rather fun. Met other cj people and played with them for a while more. It started to get boring after that, then it rained. Ugh... At least it passed quickly. After that we walked over to the other beach where the 7-11 was to get some stuff. Had some icecream, chips, a free slurpee, etc and then headed back. All this time i was wearing jessie's FLOWERY watch as a dare. Then on the way back i got dragged into the sea and her watch (which was named rose) died. All because of SOMEBODY. Nevermind... We took damn long to get back because along the way we were doing stupid things. Oh yea, jessie got thrown into the sea too. Heh... Bathed then went back to the mainland. The rest of them didn't want to have dinner so i had to get my own food at farrer market. Hmm, that's it for monday i guess.

Tuesday was rather uneventful. All i did was replace my sim card for a new one so that i could activate my mms and gprs and what not. That's it. Heh... Wednesday was about the same. Stoned at home the whole day. Thursday i went bowling with doug and luke in the morning. Played a fool down there but it was really fun. Heh... After that i left for novena. Met joel and timo there then met haikal after his work. Went over to joel's place and worked a little on our song. But more often than not we were playing around and watching stupid videos on his com. Haha... Went for dinner after. Friday went to see dad at work for a while, then mum drove me to ikea. Met jill for lunch. Meatballs. Hahaha... Walked around (literally, AROUND) before finally finding the place to eat. Anyways, after that we walked over to queensway for a while then went to mc's. Just chatted until it was time to leave. Caught a cab, and she dropped me at the mrt station before heading for holland v. And she paid for the fare! Wahaha.. Thanks jill, you're the best. ;) Took a long long long mrt ride to pasir ris STANDING UP. Ugh... Got there twenty minutes late. I had actually already told jessie i was going to be late, but those three still insisted i treat them ice cream. Whatever... I offered at the end of the day but all didn't want so ITS YOUR LOSS. Haha... Anyways, took a bus to pasir ris park then cycled for two hours before heading back for dinner at the place near the mrt station. (Don't know what its called.) Mick, ribena is not gay. After dinner we sat outside mc's and stoned and talked for some time before leaving for home.

Today (yesterday) (saturday), i woke up to check my posting results and then went off to st. wilfred's for soccer. Wan wan's brother is quite pro man... Heh... Met some cj people there too, so we played against their team. Was quite fun. After that i left for home. The freaking 186 that came had the sign saying "OUT". I swear i saw it correctly. BUT, the damn bus turned into the terminal. nbcb. Nevermind. So by the time i got back to farrer market was like 2pm? So i had lunch then walked home. Meeting went well. Then went over to luke's for dinner. His place is FREAKING NICE man... Haha, the tv upstairs was like WOAH. Lol... I can go on and tell you about his place but i've got to sleep now. Need to wake up in about seven plus hours? That's not a good thing. Last day of the holidays and i can only sleep for so little. Ugh...

One more thing before i post the entry. I need your opinion. F maths or econs? Please let me know what you feel. Thanks, because i'm at a lost now.

The flapping of a single butterfly's wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. So, in a month's time, a tornado that would have devastated the Indonesian coast doesn't happen. Or maybe one that wasn't going to happen, does.

-Chaos Theory

It think this is freaking cool.

Just a quick update because i haven't blogged in more than a week and also because i have to leave home soon to go change my sim card. (After months and months of putting forward.) Don't worry i'll update with more detail soon. Yes, soon.

The last week in cj was... okay. I went on monday, ponned tuesday, went wednesday, ponned thursday, and went friday. Haha... Didn't exactly pon on tuesday, because i really was sick. Actually i still am now, but just slightly. Met jerome and some of his friends in queensway on thursday morning and (finally) got myself new boots. It was more ex than my previous pair but i decided to "reward" myself with the cash i got from the eagles award. Heh... Can't really remember why i ponned on tuesday though. Hmm... Anyways on the last day of school we all got our "progress report". It doesn't really matter to me actually, except the fact that i really need to do better for GP. I got a 6 for that. I even did better for chinese than gp. That's full of shit. And my physics marks were wrongly calculated i think. I think i was supposed to get a 64 instead of the 74 they wrote on my paper. Well, i'm not complaining. But now i'm not sure what combi to take after the holidays. Econs or f math? Hmm... So after school on friday went out with the og for haunted mansion and then went to try out mccafe, followed by dinner at ljs in far east. Saturday we went to jessie's house for dinner and just to slack around. Sunday i spent like my usual sundays, then monday (yesterday) went to sentosa with og again. Heh, seem to be meeting them just about everyday. Going to see them again on friday.

Okay, that was super messy. I'll neaten it up soon.

I don't know if putting sa as my first choice was the correct decision. I realised that with my score i could have gone to nj, but that was only after i submitted the jae thing and the deadline for changes had passed. Then now people like aaron and timo are saying that if they're posted to sa, they'll appeal back to cj. But even if i was to do that, i highly doubt that brother paul would accept me back in, because cj was my 5th choice. FIFTH. Really confused at the moment, but it looks like i don't really have a choice on what to do. So i've just got to do my best wherever i land up. Make new friends, keep in contact with old friends, and be happy. ;)

On another note, went jamming for the first time in quite a while yesterday. Imran said to meet at 3pm, but we only started jamming at 4.10pm. Heh typical. Anyways, we had "guests" for the first half hour of jamming. Shamus and some other guy (i don't know his name sorry) tagged along for a while. The lack of jamming certainly showed. It took me quite a while to adjust to the volume. Either that or imran's new sticks really worked and he was playing extra loudly. Played a lot of blink 182 songs at the start then went to "work on" our song. Haha... Think its quite cool how it turned out to be, but all we need now is lyrics. Oh and i must say we were playing pretty well yesterday. Haha.. (yes ego)

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Anyways, going to play soccer soon, even though i'm a little sick. Heh... It's okay if i get worse, i just won't go to school. No big loss. Heh... But i guess i would want to spend the remaining days i have in cj to the fullest. Go do stupid things and get into trouble and then withdraw. Haha.. I don't think i'll be missing the school and the teachers and all very much, but i'll definately miss the people there. (aww how mushy)

Ripped from kev's blog.

~FIRST~
*First pet : a squirrel named jonathan.
*First piercing/tattoo: pierced my thumb with a stapler in primary school, and first tattoo was some sticker one.
*First best friend: tom lee?
*First enemy: this guy in kindergarden whose name i shall not mention, because its a small world.
*First trip: can't remember
*First party: my first birthday?
*First play/musical/performance: joseph and the technicolour dreamcoat?
*First musician you remember hearing in your house: one of my dad's cds

~LASTS~
*Last big car ride: BIG car ride?
*Last good cry: no good cry.
*Last library book: nil.
*Last movie seen: gothika? can't rmb
*Last beverage drank: iced water
*Last food consumed: last night's desert
*Last crush: hmm...
*Last phone call: mum
*Last tv show watched: didn't watch the tv the whole of yday and today. heh
*Last club/show attend: ?
*Last time showered: last night
*Last shoes worn: adidas sambas
*Last song played: no doubt - spiderwebs
*Last item bought: cup of ribena in school
*Last annoyance: yesterday maybe?
*Last disappointment: yesterday.
*Last soda drank: 2 days before ash wednesday
*Last ice cream eaten: the 25cents mc's ice cream cone christine treated me to.
*Last time wanting to die: very very long time ago
*Last time scolded: i'm a good boy
*Last shirt worn: reebok
*Last hair do: just-woke-up
*Last website visited: nxck.side-project.net
*Last Good fun: not too long ago
*Last book u've read: the little prince
*Last person ur thinking of: ??

Everytime i keep on replaying the song iris by the goo goo dolls, it usually means something's gone wrong. It's funny how just some stupid song can change your whole mood and stuff. I'd post the lyrics up yet again but i couldn't be bothered because i already posted it up a few entries ago. Songs like this, or ONLY this, fit the whole melancholic, sad, lost state that someone's in. I don't know if i'm making any sense or not but its okay, just ignore what you've just read. It's probably all crap anyways. Especially after stoning the whole day long...

There are times when you are just not wanted, just not needed, so go away.

Help needed.

Good thing i'm going to play squash tomorrow (today) with chris. Can relieve all the tension.

My gosh its so hard to choose which school i want to go to... Can i just go back to SJI? Where i spent probably the best four years of my life... I can give you endless reasons why SJI simply rocks but i won't bore you with so many. Just a few. Heh...

SJI's the only place where i've woken up every morning and did NOT even THINK of ponning school. Even in primary school i ponned a few times and in cj i've ponned many times already. There's just this thing that draws you to the school, a connection of some sort that makes you want to go to school. Of course i dreaded the lessons and the teachers especially you-know-who but the company in SJI is like none other. Friendships weren't limited to the class or cca but extended throughout the whole level and even then school. It was like i knew almost everyone, which was pretty cool.

When i first stepped into my SJI class 1e8 in 2000, i didn't know a single soul in the class. All strange faces and a super strict looking form tutor, who after two years definately earned my respect. I never thought that i'd fit in, but the magic of SJI made me feel like i knew those people for many years, only after being together for a month. The friendships formed there superseded those i made in primary school, which i thought would never ever be lost. That's a sad thing, but at the same time not that bad. Besides, its hard not to become close friends with people you see at least five times a week.

Then i remember getting posted to 308 in 2002. I only knew maybe 3 or 4 people posted to the same class. The rest were all strangers. Felt like day one all over again. As again, i never ever thought to have my now-close friends to be those i never knew existed then. And also i began to drift from my sec 1 and 2 friends, but not as much as the primary school people. So i don't know if now i'll find new friends in jc that would take the place of those made in 408 and sji, but i think its quite unlikely. We'll see, only time can tell.

The school itself was amazing. I remember i could stay in school all the way until 5+pm before making my way home if i didn't have anything else on. There's none of that now in cjc. Now i leave the school compound as soon as class is dismissed. There's nothing that pulls me back to the school or entices me to stay a little longer, none of that. SJI is truly a special place, and if i had the chance to spend another four years there i'd gladly take it. So here's to those of you still in SJI and can't wait to leave and move on to another school, enjoy every single moment you've got there. I guess what they say is true. You don't miss something until you lose it.